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a nauseating fear by BritLawrence a nauseating fear by BritLawrence
edit: changed main file.. same content, different shot and edit.

took this about 3 weeks ago i think? i just remember i was reallyyyyy emotional when i wrote this. i mixture of frustration/desperation/suicidal ideation/anger/hopelessness and lots of tears. i just had an urge to write this to get out some of my frustration and put my thoughts on paper.. threw some pills all over that i was sorting for the week after they reminded me of how fucked up i am. so yeah.. there's the story behind that. not looking for attention/sympathy, just hoping this might help others like me in a way so that they know that they're not alone. wish i could change a few things about it, like the angle, but i don't remake things that i made with raw emotion. it's very hard to duplicate
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avgreen Aug 19, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Some times I hope people will tell me its okay too... But IT WILL BE OKAY!!!! :hug:
BritLawrence Aug 19, 2013   Photographer
RavensXGirl Apr 9, 2013  Student General Artist
Me too :/
Jail-Hearts Feb 17, 2013  Student General Artist
:tighthug: It WILL be okay one day, I promise.
BritLawrence Feb 17, 2013   Photographer
:aww: :glomp:
carletto47 Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is indeed very emotional it is some thing I can not relate too as have never suffered such .Never the less this pic really hits you.
Shine-Hikaru Feb 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist was only when I read your description was when I realized that the things surrounding the note were pills. Ugh, I'm going blind.

Anyway, a really great shot. Has a great and strong impact and I'm sure that many people need support right now with all the things going through. 2013 in my place has been rocky so far, but hopefully everyone can pull through in the end.

But this is just a random little thing, but sometimes it's hard to tell people that it's okay when they just push you away and keep saying it's not...;n;
BritLawrence Feb 8, 2013   Photographer
i don't really do that anymore, we're not all the same you know

but thank you for you comment, i appreciate your opinion
Shine-Hikaru Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Then that's good. When did I insinuate that everyone in the world was having problems? Okay, so we all do (with varying degrees) and of course, we're not all the same. When did I say otherwise? .3.
Everything will be ok, when you are in control of your life. Others can say bad and horrible things, can do all kinds of physical damage but remember this....

You are not alone, reach out to friends for a paw up. We are the strongest animal on this planet when we remember we are not alone.
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