If you my page, let me know in a comment on this journal and you'll be entered into a drawing for 50 points! (Drawing will take place on Randomizer.org once my page gets to 100 likes!) You do not have to be a watcher but if you like my work, well, I do appreciate getting a new watcher now and then. They mean the world to me : )
I truly feel terrible about this, but reality is what it is. Basically I'm stuck in the worst bout of depression I've ever had and with my anxiety being at an all time high, (it's completely out of control), Seroquel (and Ativan) are the only thing that is keeping me from having to go / ending up in the hospital, (I mean, it's getting bad, bad..) Basically I'm just living day to day in shame, self hatred, and fear, barely able to do the simplest of things. It's pathetic. So between the physical pain (I have pretty severe Fibro as well), the emotional pain, & the anxiety (I can't even breathe right), I'm completely failing at being an artist. I have so many good ideas but I just can't seem to successfully execute them .. no matter how many times I try doing it over. Doing this journal entry is quite a feat for me. I surprised myself.
So, I guess I just wanted you guys to know that I love you and I'm still here. I still check my dA frequently, and I still am able to get into the social aspect of the site - I'm just not submitting very much at the time being. But I promise, pinky promise, I will be back soon. I just gotta get my shit together.